Went to Lanis again the other day, which was as always beautiful. We hang out in the North Shore as often as possible. Its a good way to forget about how small the island is. No one really goes out to that side of the island, well no one I really know. Its nice to get away & relax. The skies have been so blue lately, I'm so in love with the weather. I wish I could afford to spend my days in the backyard watching the clouds or at the beach. I do love that I now have weekends off!! I've never enjoyed it so much!!
I've been feeling so strange lately. I guess this is my blog & I should write how I feel so that I can look back & remember, maybe even laugh : ). Yesterday I thought about taking a break from my blog & focusing on my self & what I want. I think I've been
letting a lot of things get to me. For a while I kept feeling like I was on the wrong path, life path I guess. I asked my self "what are you doing," a lot. I kept trying to force my self to be something I'm not, trying to accomplish goals before others to prove a point. However... I've already accomplished so much in such a short amount of time. I had to step out of the box & look at the big picture. I've traveled to so many places, I've saw so many things, I'm in love & I have the best of friends, better than I deserve most of the time. I've not wasted a single moment of my life for the last 4.5 years. I can look back & say I've loved everything I've done. I'm not a slave to mathematics or text. I am a slave to reading maps & exploration. I'm so happy to be in the place that I am. My sister shared something funny with me yesterday, which changed my whole mood. I'm now beginning
to realize that the people I loathed the most, loath me even more & I guess in some sick way it gives me pleasure. Just knowing that you keep on wishing & regretting: ) Being happy is the best revenge I suppose.
Any way. I hope everyone enjoys their up-coming weekend!! Its my birthday weekend so send plenty of happy wishes my way ; )
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