Fake Plastic Trees

I sat at the window today and watched the rain filter through the mountains.  I almost called you today to tell you about the spider in my hair, then I remembered.  I don't know how to this without you.  I need your help.  I think about you every day.  I remember that time we walked up into the mountains to pick flowers.  You sat me down on a rock and told me that I need to remember to be happy and that happiness comes from inside and no matter how stressed and angry I am to focus on Nicole.  Sometimes when it's absolutely silent I can hear you whispering to me to be strong, I miss you so much.  I wish you were here.  I'd give anything to hear you scolding me one more time.