Fake Plastic Trees

I watched the waves unfurl against the sand.  I couldn't remember the last time I felt this good. I miss the ocean on a daily basis.  I slowly waded towards the oceans mouth. With each step I pressed hard into the sand curling my toes back griping the rigidity.  Bits of seaweed and coral debris tether to my skin as submerge my self.  In between rolling walls of dark blue water I catch my breath and inhale the salt ocean air.  Looking out into the distance the horizon seems to highlight the oceans edge, like a sunset against a dark cliff.  I spotted the moon  just beneath a palm tree.  Glider planes fly past the crescent glowing half smile.  I've missed this; my mind in completely silent.  The only sounds were the meandering symphony of waves and a chorus sung by the winds.  Sometimes you need moments of clarity in between all the calamity to remind your self of how sweet everything can be.  A lot has changed in my life and I'm slowly learning to let go, how to drop my walls I've built.  I need to remind my self that certain things are temporary, even things I wish were permanent.  I've changed enormously as a person within a span of months and have done a million things I never thought I was capable of doing. No matter what happens I feel like I made all of the right choices for my self.  Not for anyone else.  I've lost a lot of good friends in the whole mess of things but I do not regret the decisions I made.  I'm happy.

xx


“You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, or even months over-analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could've, would've happened... or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move the fuck on.”-Tupac